I miss everything… going out almost every weekend with my friends.. doing fucked up things, sneaking out, going on adventures at 4 in the morning, and slipping in through the window being able to lay down on my bed having a victorious feeling and thinking, “YES. I didn’t get caught”. I miss living on what I thought was the edge. I miss not having to give a flying fuck about anyone or what they thought of me… It’s not that i hate the person that I’ve become, but I just miss my old lifestyle. I don’t even talk to the people that I would spend almost every night with… I limit myself on what i do now. and it sucks balls. i look at everything so differently now. I’m not living my high school life the way it should be, or well, the way i want it to be. i miss being alone at night, i miss being independent, i miss not having anybody to tell me what to do.